vytis: (who's playing tricks on me?)
Lithuania ([personal profile] vytis) wrote2011-07-18 01:11 am

trylika; action/phone (level 4)

Phone; action for 1333 Benny Road and its closet of Communists

[Lithuania happens to be right outside the closet he locked all his false Communists in for their own protection. So you guys get to listen to this too! Be happy you are included!]

I'm really getting tired of all this talk about Communism--when you actually experienced it, hearing all these people who have no idea what they're talking about claiming to be part of it just makes me sick to my stomach. I-I mean that literally, by the way; the more I'm worried the worse my stomachache gets, i-it's really annoying, and I'm out of pills for it right now. I-I should go get more, but I have to watch Miss Hungary and Miss Ukraine and Estonia and Miss Madoka here, I can't just wander off. M-maybe I should ask but I really don't like admitting to having problems like that, I can take care of them myself...

E-except I can't stop talking right now, or I would, I-I'm really sorry if you're listening to this, i-it's ridiculous, isn't it? But it just keeps getting worse and I'm afraid I'm going to start calling myself a Communist too, and I'm not, that's the last thing I'd ever say I was, so if I do start saying that just--stop me, somehow, I suppose. It bothers me that Estonia is saying it, especially. I mean, he's not exactly my brother, he's--my cousin, kind of distant, really. But h-he's like my brother, even if he doesn't think so--even if it really hurts sometimes when he talks about wanting to be a Nordic. I don't mind, he can be whatever he wants, but it's as if being Baltic is bad, and I did something wrong. T-that's ridiculous, right? But I w-worry too much, all the time, really. But if being Nordic would make him happy then I don't mind...

I-I really just want to keep a few people here safe, though it's hard and I've already messed it up a few times because I'm not that strong anymore. I used to be, really, but then a lot of things happened. That's mostly Russia's fault, or it's what I say, but really I know there were a lot of reasons, and I blame Poland a lot too. That's not fair to say here w-when he's not even here to defend himself but a-a lot of the time I really hate him for a lot of things he's done, like the Commonwealth and taking Vilnius from me and bullying me now and...

...I-I should put down the phone. Um. I'm really sorry, if you listened to all of this.

[identity profile] webfreedomftw.livejournal.com 2011-07-18 06:28 pm (UTC)(link)
As far as I'm concerned, you are my brother. [He pauses, thinking that he ought to be grateful for the door, because it was probably easing the awkwardness slightly.]

And there's nothing wrong with being Baltic. I'm just... not. Not really. You know that. It's nothing against you.

[identity profile] webfreedomftw.livejournal.com 2011-07-18 08:32 pm (UTC)(link)
I... perhaps? Quick, test me with something.

[identity profile] webfreedomftw.livejournal.com 2011-07-18 08:58 pm (UTC)(link)
If I never have to think about the doctrine again, I'll be far more sane.

[identity profile] webfreedomftw.livejournal.com 2011-07-19 02:08 am (UTC)(link)
That would be nice. [And Estonia will be standing there looking contemplative, with just a hint of completely and absolutely devastated that should be hard to pick up on if you're not looking for it, or aren't used to post-Soviet Estonia.]

[identity profile] webfreedomftw.livejournal.com 2011-07-19 02:26 am (UTC)(link)
I'm fine. And Soome told me I'd hate myself this week... Ha, guess he was on to something there. I'll call him later, it's fine.

[As Estonia rubs idly at his wrists, he muses that this would be a good moment for a comment about family or Baltic priorities, but he couldn't even hope to find the wording. How do feelings even work? He needs a user manual.]

Are you... I mean, you've stopped over-talking, so you're doing better?

[identity profile] webfreedomftw.livejournal.com 2011-07-19 03:05 am (UTC)(link)
... Okay, ignoring the fact that your smile alone would tell me you're back to how you are usually, I'm not sure any amount of hate would be productive right now. Unless we're getting mad at Russia. I'm always down for that.

[identity profile] webfreedomftw.livejournal.com 2011-07-19 03:35 am (UTC)(link)
What telephone conversation was that?

[identity profile] webfreedomftw.livejournal.com 2011-07-19 03:46 am (UTC)(link)
Baltic Luck at it's best. What happened?

[identity profile] webfreedomftw.livejournal.com 2011-07-19 04:07 am (UTC)(link)
We-- what? So while everyone was running around with all their lies or impulsive truths, we could have worked on finding a way out?

[identity profile] webfreedomftw.livejournal.com 2011-07-19 06:47 am (UTC)(link)
The Matrix? [He shakes his head.] That theory doesn't really hold water if you consider how much they manipulate us rather than the environment. It's more... we're pets. Pets susceptible to mysterious truth-or-communism pollutants in the air and some degree of mind control. Rats in a very complex cage, not in a simulation or dream-sharing environment.

[identity profile] webfreedomftw.livejournal.com 2011-07-20 07:52 am (UTC)(link)
Neither do I, in specifics, but... What if it's less like the Matrix and more like a holodeck?